In The Begining

I met my husband in 2000, when I was 29 and he 32. We got engaged in 2003 and married in July 2005. Like a lot of women I had always dreamed of getting married and having children. Never did it cross my mind that having children would be a problem for us, after all my mother did not have any problems and nor did my sister. I didn't even think about male fertility problems - I'd never really heard about them!

We started trying to conceive in 2006 , after my husband had finished his degree. I think we both assumed it would just happen, maybe not the first month but within a few....but it didn't. We told ourselves that we didn't have a problem, it must be a timing thing, so I searched the Internet and started working out ovulation days. We brushed over the issue of infertility by saying that we hadn't given it a fair try, after all I had had a cold one month or he had a bad back, so we really we hadn't tried enough (percentage chances and all that). Maybe my ovulation calculation wasn't accurate, ao we invested in the Clearblue Fertility Monitor - it tells you the best days to try. Perfect but now trying to conceive had stopped being fun and become stressful and mechanical. This wasn't the childhood dream for motherhood! Each month that my period came so did the upset.

Towards the end of 2008 (me now 36 with my biological clock ticking away), I thought that we should go and see our GPs but my husband doesn't like going to the doctor. I knew that we would both have to go for our fertility issue to be investigated. He wasn't so sure yet, thought we hadn't tried enough! I think he was in denial. Maybe I should have forced the issue by seeing mine and then telling him he had to see his GP but it was already a stressful issue, which we had had arguments over, so we waited a bit longer. I'm used to my husband taking a bit of time to make a decision but this is one where we should have been a bit more decisive but then hindsight is a wonderful thing.

In November 2009 my husband and I finally took the next step on this journey. He went to his
GP and a few weeks later I went to see mine.

Welcome To My Blog

If you are stopping ny and reading this, then thank you.

Well I've decide to start this blog to share the unfairness of infertility, the ups and downs of treatment and to let other people know that they are not alone, even if they feel like it.

Stick with me and you will learn about fear, grief, the world of the NHS and fertility treatment and how money gives you more choices.